Monday, January 31, 2011

I don't want to 'Thank You!'

Since I was a child I was told that I need to thank people for what they do for me. And I have been following it since then. Be someone opening a door for you, passing something to me, handing me something which I have been searching for, or just supporting me for something where I have needed them.

But if I observe myself I have made more mistakes after saying 'Thanks', as to what I would have made by not saying it. Not sure about all here...but I find myself becoming too thankless after I have said 'Thanks'. Does just saying 'Thanks' equates it to what has been done??

Am not talking about the minute things mentioned above, but there are people around me who have done so much for me, not once, not twice but on innumerable situations. I become obliged to say 'Thanks' to them...I say it wholeheartedly when I do it.  It definitely contains many more words than just this 6 letters. And may be the other person is able to perceive it as well. But I don't like what happens after it. With passage of time I just forget about it, it just gets washed away to a new slate, creating scope for me to write unbalanced equations which I would again end up balancing with just 'Thanks'.

Certainly it adds the bonus points for that person in my life...like we have in video games which children play. And character of my life starts moving on to next phase of game (life). God placed these people in my life as 'bonus sacks', right at the places where I need them, right at the moments when they would boost my energy and inspire me to move on. But I want to stop and convey it in someway which would not make me thankless, and let me still feel the pressure of pile of gratitude for what they do for me. Maybe thanking people is the wrong way of doing it. May be the message just needs to be conveyed at a different door, to a different address...